Last day of 2014

Yes, it's our last day for this year.

Let's do a recap:

met DH this year,

did europe travelling with tomgen,

Finished my master,

So disappointed for not being accepted in those two big companies..exactly in the final interview,

Fed up of going to interviews,

Felt so useless for not working for months,

Stayed in jakarta with mon chéri,

Have new sangjit project for january,

Being active as wedding organizer,

Found out that my bf is so sensitive,

Cried over fights with my mom,

Went to lampung with my bf,

Wonder how life is really unpredictable...by beginning of this year, I was crazy about moving out, almost being homeless in paris, so afraid of speaking french to this french people in the office,

And on this last day, being so sick and stay in my bed while listening to fireworks.

There have been so many good and bad times this year. I am so thankful for that. I hope that next year will be even better than this year.

Some points to go for next year:

Sangjit project,

Salonku project,

Work at consumer goods,

He finds a good job,

We both can move on to the next level together,

Being a better me,

Save money and have a house,

Help tepa n mera for their wedding days,

Be healthy, be positive, be grateful, be wise, be thankful.

hidup di Jakarta

Yup, saat ini gue udah hampir 4 bulan di Jakarta. dan DH juga ada disini, di Cinere tepatnya.  Rasanya uda banyak hal yang kita lalui bersama. g makin kenal DH jg, kita makin sering ribut juga. Tapi gue tetep kangen dy selalu. =)

Saat ini gue lagi super bosen, karena gue sendiri belum dapet kerjaan yang gue inginkan. uda banyak interview gue jalanin tapi ternyata belum ada yang pas. Semua yang gue incer, selalu gagal di tahap terakhir. what's wrong with me?
Gue mulai merasa ga berguna. 
Dan semalem pun gue berantem sama DH karena kita mau bikin bisnis bareng tapi ternyata ga gampang untuk kerja bareng orang yang sangat dekat dengan u. 
Gue sempet cukup excited kemarin ini karena gue bisa ngerjain bisnis ini, bisa ada order-an hampers, ada urusan kids decor party project, plus jadi wedding organizer. 
Sometimes gue mikir, iya banyak banget hal yang pengen gue lakuin at the same time. Tapi kalo gue gda yang bisa dikerjain begini, gue ngerasa useless dan ga berguna banget. Plus, g mulai mengalami krisis keuangan. 
Ahhh..klo uda begini, rasanya gue pengen kabur dan ga ketemu siapa2. Rasanya ga perlu orang2 tau gue ngapain sekarang, apa plan gue dll. yes, simply because i have no plan. 
DH juga bukan tipe yang bisa gerak cepat dalam hal merencanakan sesuatu. Yah kalo versi dy sih karena dy belajar risk management. Kebalik banget sama gue, yang kalau uda mau sesuatu, gue akan kerjain as soon as I can, karena prinsipnya, kalau mau gagal ya silahkan, tapi nanti gue akan bangun lagi. 

Gue mulai mempertanyakan, apakah keputusan untuk pulang ke Indo ini keputusan yang tepat untuk gue dan dy? Gue sedih karena sekarang dy stress ga punya kerjaan, gada plan untuk masa depan, dll. LDR is fine for me. Tapi dy yang gamau LDR, dan dy kekeuh tetep mau di Indonesia. 
so what are we going to do now?