fingers crossed

almost end of January now and things have been so unpredictable. 

let me write my new job here, with Monsieur BM. 

Now I am working at an office, where there are only a total of 9 people, including two security guys. So it's very small. PA is the owner of the company, who owns a resort in Bali, a museum at Nusa Dua and 11 gasoline center in around Jakarta area. In short, he is wealthy rich. 

But I am not working with him. I work with BM, a very extremely incredibly smart guy that I respect so much. He is a Colonel in France and a Doctor in Juridical Sciences Law.  He was working for the Minister homme d'affaires in Paris, but since 2009, he was being sent to Indonesia as the representative from EU for a project with ASEAN in Jakarta.  I really love having conversation and discussions with him, as he is really smart. and he is smart in the major that I know nothing about, crisis management. 

I learn so many things from him. From crisis management, to the way a crisis manager should think, to how the government runs in my country, to how good the systems have been in France, to many other things.  In addition, I speak French as well with him, so basically I learn so many things. 

However, I don't like what I am doing right now. Because I cannot develop myself in this office. Now, we are trying to approach the government and have some appointments with them to explain to them how important it is for a country to have a crisis center so that it can help them to provide public safety for the people.  Well, working with government is not that easy though.  

This month I was travelling to Bali and Surabaya with him, and I realize that this project is really not easy.  Because it is a mega project that I don't think the government can handle it.  this country is way too far behind, in my opinion.  

BUT, I just received a call saying that I am being accepted to the next process, that is medical check up. yuhuuu.. I am very excited about it. I remembered I was crying last month because 2 of 5 interviewees were called for next process and i was not one of the two. I applied for marketing at the beginning and never get the good news, but then they call me for sales position in the same company. So I said yes, of course. They said that I am suitable more in Sales than Marketing. Well, so far I have been accepted in one marketing position and one sales position in two different companies. So I, myself, have no idea about this.  But I will try my best. I hope the offer will be good so I can leave this company with any regret. 

ahhh thanks God, the Sangjit project went well, and DH is amazing, he has been very helpful to me and he is the best. I should never doubt his ability in doing *almost* every technical thing. Je t'aime toujours cheri. =)

***fingers crossed***

Hope I can get next customer for the Sangjit Project and also Salonku project. 

I am quite busy these days with some customers for Salonku and some prospective customers asking info about Sangjit Project. But, I am happy with it, instead the fact I gain weight as I have no time for gym. =(

Last day of 2014

Yes, it's our last day for this year.

Let's do a recap:

met DH this year,

did europe travelling with tomgen,

Finished my master,

So disappointed for not being accepted in those two big companies..exactly in the final interview,

Fed up of going to interviews,

Felt so useless for not working for months,

Stayed in jakarta with mon chéri,

Have new sangjit project for january,

Being active as wedding organizer,

Found out that my bf is so sensitive,

Cried over fights with my mom,

Went to lampung with my bf,

Wonder how life is really unpredictable...by beginning of this year, I was crazy about moving out, almost being homeless in paris, so afraid of speaking french to this french people in the office,

And on this last day, being so sick and stay in my bed while listening to fireworks.

There have been so many good and bad times this year. I am so thankful for that. I hope that next year will be even better than this year.

Some points to go for next year:

Sangjit project,

Salonku project,

Work at consumer goods,

He finds a good job,

We both can move on to the next level together,

Being a better me,

Save money and have a house,

Help tepa n mera for their wedding days,

Be healthy, be positive, be grateful, be wise, be thankful.

hidup di Jakarta

Yup, saat ini gue udah hampir 4 bulan di Jakarta. dan DH juga ada disini, di Cinere tepatnya.  Rasanya uda banyak hal yang kita lalui bersama. g makin kenal DH jg, kita makin sering ribut juga. Tapi gue tetep kangen dy selalu. =)

Saat ini gue lagi super bosen, karena gue sendiri belum dapet kerjaan yang gue inginkan. uda banyak interview gue jalanin tapi ternyata belum ada yang pas. Semua yang gue incer, selalu gagal di tahap terakhir. what's wrong with me?
Gue mulai merasa ga berguna. 
Dan semalem pun gue berantem sama DH karena kita mau bikin bisnis bareng tapi ternyata ga gampang untuk kerja bareng orang yang sangat dekat dengan u. 
Gue sempet cukup excited kemarin ini karena gue bisa ngerjain bisnis ini, bisa ada order-an hampers, ada urusan kids decor party project, plus jadi wedding organizer. 
Sometimes gue mikir, iya banyak banget hal yang pengen gue lakuin at the same time. Tapi kalo gue gda yang bisa dikerjain begini, gue ngerasa useless dan ga berguna banget. Plus, g mulai mengalami krisis keuangan. 
Ahhh..klo uda begini, rasanya gue pengen kabur dan ga ketemu siapa2. Rasanya ga perlu orang2 tau gue ngapain sekarang, apa plan gue dll. yes, simply because i have no plan. 
DH juga bukan tipe yang bisa gerak cepat dalam hal merencanakan sesuatu. Yah kalo versi dy sih karena dy belajar risk management. Kebalik banget sama gue, yang kalau uda mau sesuatu, gue akan kerjain as soon as I can, karena prinsipnya, kalau mau gagal ya silahkan, tapi nanti gue akan bangun lagi. 

Gue mulai mempertanyakan, apakah keputusan untuk pulang ke Indo ini keputusan yang tepat untuk gue dan dy? Gue sedih karena sekarang dy stress ga punya kerjaan, gada plan untuk masa depan, dll. LDR is fine for me. Tapi dy yang gamau LDR, dan dy kekeuh tetep mau di Indonesia. 
so what are we going to do now?

...27 sept 2014

Kangen kamu mon cheri.. Six days from now, We'll be hugging each other tightly. :)

DH

Je suis la femme la plus heureuse dans le monde, grâce à toi, mon chéri!

jadi panitia lagi

Weekend ini gue ikut jadi panitia acara Eurolympique di Paris. Sempet ragu-ragu waktu daftar karena ngerasa uda bukan waktunya lagi utk gue ikutan acara bgtun. Gue ud ngabisin ckup banyak waktu utk aktif di byk kegiatan selama kuliah di atma. Tp somehow g ngerasa kangen jadi panitia acar, dan juga pengent. Gimana sih kalau ppi bikin acara, dan juga g belum pernah jadi panitia acar olahraga. So here i am. Hari ini gue jadi panitia , juga besok. Dan yah, ternyata gue kangen berat jadi panitia acara bgtu. Dan gjr sangat menikmati hari ini!

Salah satu bukti bahwa gue harus berani mencoba dan mengikuti kata hati. Dengan begitu gue akan tahu ada apa di balik pintu itu.

En retard

These days I have this bad habit of being late, either to the office or to meeting appointments. This is really not a good habit. Like today, i was so late to an event because I could not wake up early in the morning. I felt very ashamed when I arrived today because I feel that I am the worst ever. I should not be late for such day. Okay it is not a big deal for them, but for me, i feel so bad about this. And now it's 22.10 and I force my self to sleep because I am so afraid to be late for tomorrow. 

I need to change this silly habit. I need to manage my time better, if not, one day, I might lose a good chance just because of being late. 

Mission starts tomorrow.

Chillin' out

I was walking around Paris for hours and hours with Asti. We started from our place to Montmarte, then to jardin du luxembourg, which was super nice, and continued to have our picnic time in ile saint louis.

It was very nice that we were walking along the riverside from île-saint-louis until the eiffel tower. I saw a lot of things that I had never know before. Around the riverside after musee d'orsay, there are places for kinds and people to play rollerblade, skate board, kids in the playing ground area, and also people who are just drinking and chilling out. There are tables there where they have the ludo, chess pattern and some other games. I didn't know this area before. Then we continued walking and found theworld map, animals painting, alphabets, numbers, and some other street art there.

Surprisingly, around the pont alexandre 3, there are a lot of cafes filled with crowds of french young businessman and women. It was around 7 pm, and yes, everybody was drinking and chilling out in the riverside, with heels on the toes and wine on the hand. I was so surprised. Because they are really young business executive, with their suits and formal working outfits. Right after pont alexandre 3, there was a very alive restaurant with music and open bartender and kitchen. They are not really eating anything. You can see the wine and champagne bottles in every table. Sow, they do enjoy their lives. It was thursday night, not even Friday night. 

It's another life of Paris that I had never known before.